In honor of my wife’s memory, and to help continue her amazing legacy, I will be republishing over the next few months some of her writings, which not only give an insight into how amazing she was, but really helped inspire so many people around the world.
My plan is to also publish her writings in a book, along with testimonials from those who were somehow inspired or helped by her (whether by her writings or good deeds). If that includes you, please send your experiences to me at israellycool-at-yahoo-dot-com.
You Inspire Me
First published Sept 10th 2012
You inspire me. You’re an inspiration. You’re amazing. Do you know how many people have said that to me or about me since I became a Cancer Survivor? What have I done to earn any admiration? Really? I mean, maybe I got sick because I have a bad gene or a bad attitude or maybe it’s just fate? Maybe G-d just wanted to wake me up from my own monotony? I don’t know. The cancer in me was spread just enough to make me a Stage 3 yet the miracle was that the surgeon was able to remove all visible signs of tumor… so I’m Cancer-free. I have to have chemotherapy to make sure any microscopic cancer is decimated, demolished… killed.
I’m blessed. G-d gives me a test and shows me unfathomable mercy. I have complete faith in G-d.
When I got sick, I cried out… to my family, to my friends, and my community. I wasn’t quiet about it at all. I’ve been very very public. I cried out for help and every single person that I care about is here, in some way; giving. People that I know less well are also here. Giving. Reaching out. My family is constantly at my side, with me and holding me up. My friends and community are encircling me, my husband and our children. We’ve received endless and selfless offers for support that I cannot even write about. How is it that I know SO MANY people who possess seemingly endless amounts of goodness and pure-hearted kindness?
So, I kind of look at myself and I have to ask, why do I inspire? Why do I seem “amazing”? I think I know the answer… I think it’s because I’m going through an immensely painful life test right now, and I went public. You are all watching, not just watching but participating. The experience is mutual. The kindness, love, and prayers are all flowing and it’s reflecting – radiating off of me somehow. I feel like I can open my eyes and see this miracle. You might think it’s me that’s inspiring… but I’m just the vessel. The inspiration is flowing because so many people; my family, friends, and good people of my community and beyond are kind and good.
You inspire me.