In honor of my wife’s memory, and to help continue her amazing legacy, I will be republishing over the next few months some of her writings, which not only give an insight into how amazing she was, but really helped inspire so many people around the world.
My plan is to also publish her writings in a book, along with testimonials from those who were somehow inspired or helped by her (whether by her writings or good deeds). If that includes you, please send your experiences to me at israellycool-at-yahoo-dot-com.
Metastatic Happiness
First published May 13th 2014
I am happy.
If a stranger were to bump into me on the street, for the first time, they might think that I’m a woman with a very funky buzzcut. I don’t think they would know what lurks under my physical facade.
I smile.
I laugh.
I AM happy.
I have all of the prerequisites for being happy:
I’m married to the man of my dreams.
I’m blessed with five wonderful children.
I have the best parents, brothers, sisters-in-law, nephews and niece.
I’m blessed with a loving and supportive extended family.
I’m blessed with caring friends who are so fun to spend time with.
I live in a loving supportive community.
I believe that there’s One God above and He is good.
I live in the Holyland.
I have an awesome pet dog.
I enjoy my life.
I feel loved.
Today, I needed to fax my medical papers to Bituach Leumi (Social Security) and when I stopped to read my own PET scan results and pathology reports, I felt like I was reading someone else’s disastrous nightmare. Surely I cannot be the site embodying such an aggressive and nasty colony of cancer! I’d forgotten so many of the details. How can it all be true?
I’m happy. I chose this happy path that I’m on… Not the cancer. Life.
I want to spread it around… Like cancer spreads. Not only do I want to infest my world with the joy and love that I feel, I want my happiness to metastasize to every person I know and every person I meet along the way.
That’s all I have to say for now.
